Wow, checking back on the last time I blogged it really has been a very long time, inspiration REALLY IS elusive for me. This past Christmas, December 21st to be exact marked the 10 year anniversary of my brother Robert's death. Although as tragic as it was and is it made me think and reflect on my own life. You see I am the exact same age as my brother was when he died 10 years ago, 38. This posed the question, if my life were to end right now like it did for my brother would I have any regrets? The answer is yes, yes I would. Not about things that I have done, no I take full ownership of all things I have done and said, good or bad I own them and hopefully have learned from them in the process. No my regrets would be for the things I haven't done, many things that I haven't done but have always wished I had. This poses another question, what am I waiting for? Why is it we need life altering experiences such as death to really wake us up to really start living? I chose to live now and in the moment, I mean I say these words all the time, but am I really living them? Isn't it funny that once you start asking yourself life questions it usually leads to more questions. I guess that is what our lives are for to seek out the questions that lead us to our own destinies and fates directed by how and when we ask the universe to lead us in the direction of our own personal life journeys. We all have the same destination, it is the journey that varies amongst all of us.
So now I have to chose somewhere to begin, travel has always been top on my to do or bucket list. So here I go, world travel, ideally Europe is where I think I want to begin. I have plans in the works to take 2 months next year and backpack through Europe. I'm gonna do it this time, no more someday, because we all know someday is code for never. My goal is for my 40th birthday which as any girl knows is a monumental one, will be rung in in the cosmopolitan and sophisticated city of Paris. How fitting, a city that never sleeps for a woman who finally has woken up and really started to live. So here I go, questions abound, bucket list begun, where its going to lead me, not sure, but at least I'm asking the questions and not waiting for the next life altering event to wake me up to live.
